I am Fine the Way I am

Good morning,

Today I was off. I love having Fridays off. I ran some errands then went to do my hair. On one of my errands I went to the Christian bookstore and bought a book entitled "Single for a Season Married for a Reason". Although I just started reading it, I think it is a good book. On my way back from the salon I started feeling down...the usual that I didn't have a boyfriend-someone I could talk to.

Lucky for me I had to meet up with a friend to study for a work exam so I didn't really have time to feel sorry for myself. I went over to my friends house and met up with other co-workers there. As you can guess we didn't get much studying done, in fact I didn't even open my book instead we cooked dinner and just chilled. It was nice just hanging out with the girls and forgetting about "B". That is when I realized that I should enjoy this phase of my life...I can go home decorate my room & house anyway I want, I can do anything on my time. I realized that somewhere in the last couple of years I had lost myself. I am very busy however, the things I am busy with involve B in one way or another so my thoughts are always on him.

*Realization, I need to find other activities that do not involve B otherwise I will always focus on him. Thank You God for this realization. I am wonderfully and fearfully made and I am going to enjoy this phase of my life instead of wishing for something else when I might get it and realize that it is more than I bargained for.

So I came home after dinner and had a nice relaxing evening. I was alone at home and just straightened everything out. I have not had the opportunity to do this in a while. I went out bought a vaccum and new trash can. Can u imagine that is how I spent my Friday evening, but it actually brought me joy. I came home vaccumed the living room, cleaned the dining room and kitchen. I now feel much better, I can't think when stuff is disorganized. Afterwards, I baked two cakes that people ordered. I am now waiting for them to come out of the oven but I now realize I am exhausted. 30 more minutes and I will be in my bed.

Thank You O'God for all You do for me
Please help me serve You first and wholeheartedly
Please grant my brother travelling mercies as he flies back tomorrow
Through God all things work for good
Gnite
Faith