The Peace of God

Good evening,

I had an awesome weekend; and it was filled with pure, good and simple fun. It did not involve getting drunk or clubbing. This would not have been possible a few years ago. All I can say is Glory be to my Father for ordering my steps and bringing me a mighty long way.

Lord, I thank You for all that You have placed within me and I promise to use it to build your Kingdom. May I always have a humble spirit and acknowledge that You are the author and finisher of my life; without You I am NOTHING.

On Friday I got to hang out with the youth at my church; we had an overnight and it was really fun. We had discussions, watched movies, played games and of course ate the whole night. It was a really fun (I know I said that already) and relaxed night. B was there too so that made it all the better (I know, I Know I am no longer jumping to any conclusions, I'm just going to put everything in God's capable hands-because He is able to do exceedingly abundantly in my life).

Back to the story....so we discussed the issues that were proposed and "boy oh boy" were people opinionated including moi. We then watched a movie. I sat down next to one of my friends and we were just chiling, then B decided to move his chair and sit next to me. "What is this all about?" is what I was saying to myself trying to rationalize his actions-was there no more space anywhere else or did he just want to sit next to me? I don't know.

I don't know if you have noticed but I am trying a new approach-the in God's hands approach. Not reading too much into any situation and just waiting to see how things play out. With this new perspective, I just took the situation for what it was. He was sitting next to me and I enjoyed it regardless of the reason behind it. Afterwards we played a game and everyone got "worked" up-it was hilarious to see some calm people lose it-me included.

Around 5am the next movie was put on but I was so seriously tired. I got my covers, little mattress and pillow and was about to pretend to watch the movie. B and C (oh yeah C was there too but she is cool peoples now-I'm trying to work on that-a story for another time) were sitting on chairs behind me. U know even though I'm trying a new perspective u know I couldn't help the slight "stinge" of jealousy that rose up, but I gave it over to God right then and there. When I was about to fall asleep B (I guess was tired too) got off his chair and moved to the floor right next to me and went to sleep. I couldn't understand this either but I really appreciated the gesture. The next morning B and I were back to our usual antics-polite small talk.

On Saturday I got to hang out with my girls. They cooked, I watched Maid of Honor and afterwards the "Color Purple" while they played the "drinking game." All in all it was a nice and quiet way of spending a Saturday night. At church this morning, B sat next to me before I left for sunday school. God help me not read too much into things. Afterwards, we talked and joked around. I like this, God please help us be friends.

I will end with this:
Lord help me be mature in Christ Jesus so that I may exercise and practice Your word so that my senses and mental faculties will be able to distinguish between what is morally good and noble and what is evil and contrary to Your divine Will. Paraphrase of Hebrews 5:14 (Amplified Bible)